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Monday, May 06, 2002
More Pop culture but in a day to day life form.
Well in 2nd block every day Liz and I pass notes back and forth no matter what. Most common subjects are Josh, Angel, stuff we plan all that good stuff well this note was a little different and I think it's worth posting on the web. Mostly I was telling her about an Angel update and I got frusterated.
Kim:I found out Angel is now a cheerleader and he has 3 maybe 4 girl's phone #s (I know it's stupid but you know how I am)
Liz: That's nothing to be upset aboutthough. Phone #'s are Phone #'s
Kim: That's not what bothered me. what bothered me was 1)His hands on another chick(s) 2) Did he hask for these #'s or was he just innocent and those hoes just give those to him? Yeah but I'm okay...sort of.
Liz: Well it's an abrupt change for him to go from big macho football/soccer/runner/ROTC person to cheerleader. But maybe he's just proving thath he's capable of achieveing things all aroun. Then again he likes girls. And being in cheerleaing there's lots of girls :) I'm sorry I'd be kinda worried too but hey that's him. He's gonna be a chick magnet anyway. Who told you this anyway?
Kim: Q It was one of those moments in life where I wanted to disembowel him or drown him in a pool of his own blood. But yeah I just wante to know what he was thinking when he decided to do that...I'm tired of this...I mena geeze Why do I care so much?
Liz: Because you think you(crosses out think and you) love him.
Kim: Yeah that's right I think I use to know ...(sigh) crap this game bores me I want out.
Liz: Well get out then. Tell him you're tired of being the girl he can always fall back on. Either he should devore himself to you or stop speaking those words of love that keep your hopes up and create dreams for your future. Take it or leave it. It's all or nothing. No more games. Kim you do know that after you move you will eventually lose contact w/him right? Unless the two of you are truley meant to be married and all then you may never see him again:( I'm sorry to say that or make you think tthat way but Kim you know I'm right(sigh) I don't mean to make you sad. The truth hurts It hurts like hell and you usually refuse to see or believe it. But let me stop talking
Kim: I'm not upset actually I feel nothin because I know it;s true. I mean I'm tired of day dreaming. I'm tired of being his pet. It drives me up the wall. The thing is that in his presece I have no strength, but HA come Act. it's freakin' over. A whole new set of guys he won't have any idea what I'm doing (and I'm sure he doesn't care) and damn him whatever he does, I'm tired no more chances. GAME OVER YOU LOSE. Once upon a time he could have gotten anything from me but now I'm tired of hunting him. Let him have his whores, he's lost the lady.

That's about where it ended. I wrote most of that out of pure anger..but to think of it I will give him a sporting chance. He once told me that he would look for me to the day he died if I left him. That if I married any man except him he would win me back and show me his love. Well I guess he'll be put to the test. If he can find me I'll give him a second chance. Think of it as a long term hide and go seek. If anyone thinks this is f**ked up send me an e-mail I feel scatter brained and perhaps I'm being rash. Please any opinoins would be appreiciated you know where to find me.

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